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["While We're Young"
by John Coggins playing]

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♪ There's someone
I've been thinking about ♪

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-Excited? Nervous?
-Very excited. Of course.

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I've been waiting for this forever.

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♪ Let's fall in love while we're young ♪

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-[laughing]
-[Chris] I got you.

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♪ Let's get crazy, let's have fun
Let's fall in love while we're young ♪

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I haven't really felt like this
about anyone.

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I am 38 years young.

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I am 22.

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Trying to roll with that whole
"age is just a number" thing. [chuckling]

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♪ Let's fall in love while we're young ♪

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I really don't know if you're ready
for this one. You ready?

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I'm 60.

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[Vanelle gasping]

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♪ Let's fall in love while we're young ♪

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[Vanelle] Oh my gosh!

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Thirty, forty, fifty, sixty.

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Yeah, he's 33 years older than me.

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[gasping]

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Jorge's literally the same age
as my parents. [giggling]

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["While We're Young" continues]

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I never wanna be surprised
about something you've done.

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I came here with you not to feel alone.

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I feel like you're not attracted to me.

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-We're kind of in a friend zone right now.
-Okay.

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Is he the right person?
Did I pick the right person?

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-Okay, I'm really done talking.
-Okay.

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[Vanelle] Can I get this mic off me,
please?

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[voice breaking] This connection
is not gonna be easy to find.

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[sniffling]

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And I know I won't find this again.

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♪ Feeling so cold ♪

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Starting tomorrow,
you are getting visitors.

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Your friends, your families.

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-Sara. Theresa.
-Hi, I'm Sara.

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He's never dated anyone this much older.

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I hope it works out well for them, but…

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-Well…
-It's… It's weird. It's weird.

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Being 23 and potentially having
two immediate children?

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[Pfeifer] Yeah.

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[voice breaking] I'm leaving everybody
and everything I've worked for.

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What the fuck am I doing?

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I'm just exhausted, I'm overwhelmed

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because I feel like
I can't be myself with you.

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[dramatic sting]

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[Andrew grunting]

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[Andrew] Integrating a 22-year-old girl
into my life is definitely concerning.

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Is there a future with us?

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[Natalie] It's decision time.

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Do you commit
to taking this leap together?

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Or do you choose a different path? Alone.

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[dramatic sting]

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[softly] That sucks.

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[music fades]

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["Crazy for You" by John Coggins playing]

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♪ I wasn't fine
Till you came into my view ♪

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♪ Thought I was going insane
Till I found you ♪

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[Vanessa] Did you get everything
out of the bathroom?

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But I'll check the other rooms.

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-You work on your--
-Suits.

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-I think you need to get a garment bag.
-[Logan] Yeah.

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I feel nervous, anxious.

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This is the last time I'm gonna see her
before the commitment ceremony.

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[Vanessa] Everything I can do, I did.

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I'm super nervous about my alone time,
and, you know,

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what is that alone time
gonna lead me to think?

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Part of me wants to commit to Vanessa,

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and then part of me is like,
is this right?

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Is this up and down
too much for us to handle? You know?

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And my fear of commitment
continues to be my fear of commitment.

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Right? And so that's…

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a scary thought.

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-How you doing?
-I got all your stuff ready for you.

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[Logan] Thank you.

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-How you feeling?
-Okay. How are you?

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[Logan] I'm good.

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-I'm sad. I don't want you to leave.
-I know. I don't even know what to say.

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-I know.
-It's been fun.

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The last few days with you has been, like,
better than I could ever dream of.

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I mean, you're one of the most amazing
girls I've ever met in my entire life.

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-Thank you.
-It's hard to put it into words, right?

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I think it was one of the most amazing,
beautiful things I've ever experienced.

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You know, it's weird
kind of closing this chapter and…

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I… I feel like we're breaking up.

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-[laughing] This is like a breakup.
-No, we're not!

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[both chuckling]

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I don't know what to say. What if I cry?

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-[chuckling]
-Don't. [chuckles]

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Don't cry?

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-No.
-Okay.

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[Logan] You'll be okay.

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-You look amazing.
-Thanks.

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[crying]

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-[Logan] Aw.
-[Vanessa chuckling]

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Okay?

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Okay.

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-No crying?
-Mm-hmm.

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-Is it okay?
-Yeah.

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-Promise?
-Mm-hmm.

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[Logan] I'm here for you.

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[softly] Yeah.

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Okay?

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I just have PTSD, I think. [chuckling]

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-What?
-I don't know.

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Just with the history of my relationships
not working out, you know?

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And I feel like this is just another
failed attempt, you know. [sniffles]

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Like, it's not you.
I don't wanna project it on you.

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It's not you at all. It's just…

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I've just put myself out there before and

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only to get hurt.

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And I just hope, like,
this doesn't have the same outcome.

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That's scary.

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["Prove Me Wrong" by INDI & KIND playing]

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♪ Something inside me is way too scared
To care about you like this ♪

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[Vanessa] Coming into this with Logan,

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I had so many reservations
because I had been so hurt before.

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So there is this guard up, like,

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"I'll be okay. I'll be okay," you know?

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And maybe I won't be okay.

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I just hope I chose right this time,
and I picked the right person,

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and I feel like you are.

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And I hope
that you feel the same about me.

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Yeah, I mean, I do.

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[Vanessa] It's really scary to

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not put yourself out there
for this many years,

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get this close to someone,

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only for yourself
to be devastated all over again

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and for the whole world
to see. [chuckling]

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-I'll see you soon, okay?
-Okay.

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-Okay.
-Take care of yourself.

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To see an older woman
with a man 20 years younger, that's rare.

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It's very rare.

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And it's like, am I delusional to think
that it would even work, you know?

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Am I delusional to put my heart out there?

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I mean, he's, like, in the prime
of his life right now, honestly.

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♪ I've been here before, darling
I don't think you'll stay ♪

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And why would he give that up
for someone 20 years older than him?

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♪ I'll hold that
I'll hold that, I'll hold on ♪

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♪ But I hope you prove me wrong ♪

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[music fades]

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["Come Back" by David O'Dowda playing]

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♪ Out of my dreams ♪

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[Leah] You're leaving.

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[Chris] I know. I'm trying to make sure
I don't forget anything.

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[Leah] But you're forgetting me.

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[Leah chuckling]

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I think that we need this little bit
of separation because we haven't had it.

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And this is the first time that
I think I'm gonna be able to look at this

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from the outside, make a clear decision.

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Clearly me and Leah have had ups and downs
since we moved in together.

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But at the same time, there's been
much blessings from this relationship.

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Even during the difficult times,

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the care and the love for each other
has always been constant.

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And I think that it's very clear

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that I care so much for her.

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So the question is, is that--
Does the good outweigh the bad?

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And… and are these good moments
enough to continue in this relationship?

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Give me a hug.

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Thank you for being you.
Thank you for making me a better person.

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You're welcome.

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No, seriously.

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[pensive music playing]

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-Why are you looking at me like that?
-Because you're leaving.

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We didn't even get to dance yet.

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Yeah.

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I have a lot of thinking--

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-We both have a lot of thinking to do.
-I know. I…

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-Oh!
-Mmm!

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[Chris grunting]

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I'm gonna miss…
I'm gonna miss you a little bit.

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I'm gonna miss you too.
I think more than you think.

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-You think?
-Mm-hmm.

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You're not gonna be able to sleep now
because you'll be thinking of me.

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-Maybe. I don't know about that.
-What?

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-[Chris] I might be able to sleep.
-No, you won't.

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Give me a kiss.

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It's like bittersweet this morning.

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-All right. I'll see you.
-I'll see you.

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With the commitment ceremony coming up,
it's gonna be difficult.

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We're still debating on how
we're even gonna make it work here, right,

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let alone commit to each other.

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I know he likes me,

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and we're leaving off
in a great space right now.

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But yeah,

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I don't wanna put any pressure on it
'cause I don't know.

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I don't know what the future holds for us.

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Whew!

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[Andrew] How are you feeling?

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-[Libby] About what?
-[Andrew] Leaving.

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[Libby] Mm-hmm.

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I feel like I've been the one
that brings up,

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you know,
some of the more challenging things,

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and we don't know
how we're gonna communicate after this.

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Like, we've only ever been in this bubble.

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So we don't know
what it's like to text or call,

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or I've never done long-distance before.

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So those things naturally, I feel like,
are things that I'm thinking about.

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[music fades]

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Yeah, I'm glad you brought it, um… up

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because I just wasn't even thinking
about it that way at all.

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I think I'm just someone
that is very realistic.

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-And you know…
-Yeah. No, I understand.

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You know that this has to end
at some point and just…

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You know, I mean, I wish we could stay
in this little bubble forever,

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but you know, we have to say goodbye.

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The fact that the next time
I am going to see Andrew

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is the commitment ceremony gives me
a little bit of anxiety, honestly.

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Um, I know he's in his head
and I don't blame him too much

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because those doubts
were in the back of my mind.

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I just wasn't really vocalizing them.

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There is a part of me that's afraid that

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the age gap between Andrew and I
will just be too much.

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And yeah, I have a fear that ultimately

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that will just be too overwhelming
for both of us.

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["Feel Love" by Full Circle playing]

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♪ Let's run into nirvana
'Cause now I can feel… ♪

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[Libby] Okay.

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Bye-bye.

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[Andrew] See ya.

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See ya.

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♪ For you, now ♪

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♪ For you, now ♪

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♪ And I can feel love ♪

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[music fades]

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[brooding pop song playing]

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[exhales]

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[John] Hey.

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[Theresa] Oh my God.

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Aw.

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-These are beautiful.
-Mm-hmm

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Well, I will think of you
every time I look at them. [chuckling]

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[John] I was thinking
about that this time away

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I love supporting you,

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and I love being here for you when…

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you're going through some shit.

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So I'll be thinking about you.

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Um…

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I'm gonna have some time just to, like,
think and get myself, like, more centered.

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-Um…
-Mm-hmm.

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[Theresa] And I'm gonna miss you for sure.

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We've gotten so close
in such a short period of time,

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and living together was amazing.

244
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Um, I'm gonna miss that for sure.

245
00:12:30,332 --> 00:12:33,502
But I think this time apart
is gonna be good for us

246
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even though I hate saying goodbye.

247
00:12:36,380 --> 00:12:37,256
Um…

248
00:12:38,924 --> 00:12:41,051
[voice breaking] So I'm glad I have these.

249
00:12:43,012 --> 00:12:44,180
[John] I'm there with you.

250
00:12:44,680 --> 00:12:45,556
[Theresa] Okay.

251
00:12:49,393 --> 00:12:51,979
-Well, thanks for being everything for me.
-Mm-hmm.

252
00:12:52,062 --> 00:12:52,897
And…

253
00:12:55,232 --> 00:12:57,026
Don't miss me too much. [chuckling]

254
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Impossible.

255
00:13:00,237 --> 00:13:01,989
I am in love with Theresa.

256
00:13:02,907 --> 00:13:06,118
The way she's allowed me to open up
and be vulnerable

257
00:13:06,202 --> 00:13:09,705
and not put on a facade,
which I've done in the past.

258
00:13:09,789 --> 00:13:11,207
And just the joy she brings me,

259
00:13:11,290 --> 00:13:14,919
like when I wake up and I see her
and, like, that… that sense of home.

260
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It feels good.

261
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[softly] Love you.

262
00:13:18,631 --> 00:13:22,343
Am I hoping
that we come out on the same page

263
00:13:22,426 --> 00:13:23,803
and even a little stronger?

264
00:13:23,886 --> 00:13:26,555
Yeah, and I think that's a possibility.

265
00:13:29,517 --> 00:13:31,602
But there's a chance that…

266
00:13:32,186 --> 00:13:34,313
-This is gonna be weird.
-[Theresa] I know.

267
00:13:35,940 --> 00:13:37,566
…she just

268
00:13:38,984 --> 00:13:40,528
gets way too in her head,

269
00:13:40,611 --> 00:13:43,906
and she might be a different person
when I see her again.

270
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-Bye.
-Okay. Goodbye.

271
00:13:53,040 --> 00:13:54,041
[Theresa sniffling]

272
00:13:55,000 --> 00:13:56,043
[sighing]

273
00:13:57,670 --> 00:14:01,215
I have a huge, huge decision to make.

274
00:14:01,298 --> 00:14:03,592
[contemplative music playing]

275
00:14:03,676 --> 00:14:08,305
There's no denying that we had a true
and real connection from the beginning.

276
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♪ Time is gonna let you down ♪

277
00:14:15,771 --> 00:14:16,730
[Theresa] However,

278
00:14:17,690 --> 00:14:19,191
I still have some doubts.

279
00:14:21,694 --> 00:14:26,824
♪ Is this just the final call? ♪

280
00:14:26,907 --> 00:14:28,826
[Theresa] It's a huge commitment

281
00:14:28,909 --> 00:14:35,165
to say that this person
who's 27 years younger than me

282
00:14:36,166 --> 00:14:37,251
is my boyfriend

283
00:14:38,335 --> 00:14:42,047
and that I'm going to commit
to going forward with this

284
00:14:42,131 --> 00:14:44,508
and opening this up to the world.

285
00:14:48,470 --> 00:14:53,434
I don't know if I have the strength
to see this through.

286
00:14:53,517 --> 00:14:56,937
♪ Could this be the end? ♪

287
00:15:01,066 --> 00:15:02,443
[music fades]

288
00:15:02,526 --> 00:15:05,195
-Let's cheers to this journey we've had.
-Cheers.

289
00:15:05,279 --> 00:15:08,741
-Cheers to a big decision.
-It's a very big decision coming.

290
00:15:13,871 --> 00:15:16,123
[pensive music playing]

291
00:15:16,206 --> 00:15:17,207
How do you feel?

292
00:15:19,710 --> 00:15:22,087
I, you know, I know how I feel about you.

293
00:15:22,588 --> 00:15:24,924
I know that
that doesn't always make everything

294
00:15:25,883 --> 00:15:27,259
A-okay and easy.

295
00:15:27,343 --> 00:15:31,805
I do understand the logistics
of where we are, uh, in life,

296
00:15:32,514 --> 00:15:35,559
geographical challenges,
other challenges as well.

297
00:15:35,643 --> 00:15:36,477
So…

298
00:15:37,311 --> 00:15:40,648
You know? It's time
to take all that into consideration.

299
00:15:40,731 --> 00:15:41,899
[Pfeifer] Yeah.

300
00:15:41,982 --> 00:15:45,027
This whole time, we've kinda been like,
oh, we are in a fairy tale,

301
00:15:45,110 --> 00:15:48,614
and everything is perfectly smooth,
and we're having no challenges,

302
00:15:48,697 --> 00:15:49,823
which was true.

303
00:15:49,907 --> 00:15:52,159
It was true up until these last few days.

304
00:15:52,910 --> 00:15:57,414
So the fact
that we're taking this time apart now, um,

305
00:15:57,915 --> 00:16:01,460
has me a little bit unsure

306
00:16:02,878 --> 00:16:04,964
about my decision.

307
00:16:05,631 --> 00:16:06,840
Um,

308
00:16:06,924 --> 00:16:10,135
a lot of questions have come up
that I just have been ignoring.

309
00:16:10,219 --> 00:16:14,139
And I think I've been putting them off
because I didn't wanna ruin anything

310
00:16:14,223 --> 00:16:16,934
or have anything be different
than what it was.

311
00:16:17,643 --> 00:16:23,065
So, like, while it is confusing,
and it's scary,

312
00:16:23,148 --> 00:16:28,195
I know that this time apart
will end up benefiting both of us

313
00:16:29,571 --> 00:16:33,575
because my decision
will be grounded and, um…

314
00:16:34,576 --> 00:16:37,037
-And, like, it'll be thoughtful.
-Yeah.

315
00:16:37,997 --> 00:16:39,123
And I respect that.

316
00:16:41,834 --> 00:16:44,336
I definitely think her concerns are valid.

317
00:16:44,420 --> 00:16:48,048
But one thing that I've done
the last few days

318
00:16:48,132 --> 00:16:52,803
is try to truly focus on her feelings
and her emotions.

319
00:16:52,886 --> 00:16:55,806
And I've taken myself out of it
a little bit.

320
00:16:56,390 --> 00:16:59,685
And, obviously, we're gonna have
some time apart to where, you know,

321
00:16:59,768 --> 00:17:03,772
I'm going to have to think that through
on my side as well.

322
00:17:03,856 --> 00:17:05,482
And what does that look like?

323
00:17:05,566 --> 00:17:09,361
'Cause it's a big commitment,
and can she handle it?

324
00:17:09,862 --> 00:17:10,696
I'll see you.

325
00:17:10,779 --> 00:17:13,824
We're probably
just at different stages in life.

326
00:17:13,907 --> 00:17:17,995
I have my boys. How will that match?
There's so many question marks.

327
00:17:19,663 --> 00:17:21,957
I'd be lying to you… [chuckling]

328
00:17:22,041 --> 00:17:23,959
…if I didn't say
I was a little bit nervous.

329
00:17:24,543 --> 00:17:27,504
♪ If it's not too late ♪

330
00:17:29,631 --> 00:17:32,634
♪ If it's not too late ♪

331
00:17:32,718 --> 00:17:35,095
♪ Do you feel me falling? ♪

332
00:17:35,179 --> 00:17:38,098
♪ If it's not too late ♪

333
00:17:40,184 --> 00:17:41,351
[music fades]

334
00:17:42,936 --> 00:17:44,188
[dramatic sting]

335
00:17:48,067 --> 00:17:50,069
[birds chirping]

336
00:17:51,945 --> 00:17:54,073
[pensive music playing]

337
00:17:57,159 --> 00:18:01,163
[John] So today
is the commitment ceremony.

338
00:18:02,122 --> 00:18:05,793
I feel confident,
but I don't know how she's been feeling.

339
00:18:05,876 --> 00:18:07,836
I don't know
if she let the thoughts get to her

340
00:18:07,920 --> 00:18:10,839
or the stress of her kids get to her.

341
00:18:10,923 --> 00:18:15,010
♪ Turn and face the storm ♪

342
00:18:15,094 --> 00:18:17,721
[John] You know, I support her,
and I'm here for her,

343
00:18:17,805 --> 00:18:21,225
and my family supports,
you know, our relationship,

344
00:18:21,308 --> 00:18:24,311
but I'm worried
that Theresa hasn't bought in

345
00:18:24,394 --> 00:18:27,981
because of a lot of factors
that I can't control.

346
00:18:28,065 --> 00:18:33,779
♪ Every star you think
That guided you before… ♪

347
00:18:33,862 --> 00:18:35,906
I'm fully committed to Theresa.

348
00:18:35,989 --> 00:18:39,910
♪ This will be my final teardrop ♪

349
00:18:39,993 --> 00:18:43,580
♪ This will be our curtain call ♪

350
00:18:43,664 --> 00:18:44,498
[John] And

351
00:18:45,332 --> 00:18:49,044
I hope she's ready
to take that leap with me.

352
00:18:54,216 --> 00:18:56,385
[breathing deeply]

353
00:18:58,011 --> 00:19:01,890
♪ Pull away the thorn… ♪

354
00:19:01,974 --> 00:19:05,686
My feelings are getting much stronger
every day for John.

355
00:19:05,769 --> 00:19:08,981
I have to admit that, you know,
I am falling for him.

356
00:19:09,815 --> 00:19:12,067
It's almost been too good to be true,

357
00:19:12,151 --> 00:19:15,445
but there's also a piece of me
that still has doubts.

358
00:19:15,529 --> 00:19:21,910
♪ Ever gave you a ride
To you is not my love ♪

359
00:19:22,411 --> 00:19:27,332
[Theresa] This age gap difference is huge.
And… Yeah, I'm scared.

360
00:19:27,416 --> 00:19:30,544
♪ Give this love no more ♪

361
00:19:32,337 --> 00:19:35,048
[Theresa] I have the option
of walking away today.

362
00:19:35,132 --> 00:19:36,258
And,

363
00:19:37,176 --> 00:19:39,094
you know, I'd be walking away from a lot.

364
00:19:40,053 --> 00:19:44,349
I know that I will regret
not having him in my life,

365
00:19:44,933 --> 00:19:49,104
but I don't know
if it's going to be too much.

366
00:19:49,897 --> 00:19:51,440
Should we just

367
00:19:53,192 --> 00:19:55,944
take the easy route
and go our separate ways

368
00:19:56,028 --> 00:19:58,864
and go back to our lives
the way they were?

369
00:20:00,490 --> 00:20:02,659
I don't know if I'm ready for this.

370
00:20:03,202 --> 00:20:07,956
♪ A final teardrop ♪

371
00:20:12,753 --> 00:20:14,213
[music swelling]

372
00:20:29,853 --> 00:20:31,063
[music fades]

373
00:20:31,146 --> 00:20:31,980
[softly] Okay.

374
00:20:32,064 --> 00:20:33,482
[birds chirping]

375
00:20:33,565 --> 00:20:38,946
We've gone through a lot of hard stuff
early on that I'm thankful for.

376
00:20:39,029 --> 00:20:41,740
We had to be there for each other,
and that says something.

377
00:20:41,823 --> 00:20:43,533
I've never been able
to be there for someone.

378
00:20:43,617 --> 00:20:45,911
I was never in the right headspace for it.

379
00:20:45,994 --> 00:20:48,038
I was never open to receive this

380
00:20:48,121 --> 00:20:50,832
and to support someone
like I've supported you.

381
00:20:50,916 --> 00:20:55,545
I feel lucky
that I get to show up for you.

382
00:20:56,880 --> 00:20:58,382
I'm confident in this.

383
00:20:58,465 --> 00:21:03,470
I'm confident in what we've built.
I know what we have, and it's the feeling.

384
00:21:03,553 --> 00:21:04,972
[emotional music playing]

385
00:21:05,055 --> 00:21:11,478
It's the immediate sense of calmness
you bring me whenever I see you.

386
00:21:12,646 --> 00:21:17,067
Us being able to laugh
during the most serious moments,

387
00:21:18,026 --> 00:21:19,528
the most intimate moments.

388
00:21:20,612 --> 00:21:22,155
I'm looking forward to…

389
00:21:24,283 --> 00:21:25,325
that next step,

390
00:21:25,409 --> 00:21:28,537
and we'll get there with the age thing.

391
00:21:28,620 --> 00:21:29,621
[Theresa] Mm-hmm.

392
00:21:30,497 --> 00:21:33,583
I need you to believe
that age is just a number

393
00:21:33,667 --> 00:21:35,544
but also believe in me

394
00:21:35,627 --> 00:21:39,131
that every day I'm gonna show up
and work on this together.

395
00:21:44,428 --> 00:21:51,226
When I decided to take this journey
to find someone to share my life with,

396
00:21:52,602 --> 00:21:55,856
I said to myself that I was ready.

397
00:21:56,440 --> 00:21:57,566
When I met you,

398
00:21:58,400 --> 00:22:04,072
you drew me in with your smile,
your energy, and your steadiness.

399
00:22:06,241 --> 00:22:07,534
You made me laugh.

400
00:22:09,161 --> 00:22:10,120
[music fades]

401
00:22:10,203 --> 00:22:11,496
And you made me

402
00:22:12,706 --> 00:22:15,334
feel better than I ever had in the past.

403
00:22:16,460 --> 00:22:18,045
But for whatever reason,

404
00:22:18,128 --> 00:22:20,964
there was still something holding me back.

405
00:22:21,048 --> 00:22:23,050
[dramatic music playing]

406
00:22:23,759 --> 00:22:27,804
When you met my kids,
and I didn't tell them your age,

407
00:22:27,888 --> 00:22:30,057
it wasn't because I was ashamed.

408
00:22:30,140 --> 00:22:31,683
It was because I was scared.

409
00:22:33,143 --> 00:22:36,688
Scared because if I spoke it,
it would be real.

410
00:22:38,357 --> 00:22:39,816
Scared because

411
00:22:40,942 --> 00:22:43,570
of the things we might face from the world

412
00:22:44,821 --> 00:22:48,950
knowing that the world is not fair

413
00:22:49,743 --> 00:22:53,914
and that there is a double standard
against women who date younger men.

414
00:22:55,123 --> 00:22:56,833
So it got me thinking,

415
00:22:57,334 --> 00:23:02,756
maybe it would be better if I walked away
before it got to be too difficult…

416
00:23:02,839 --> 00:23:05,717
♪ You, you keep me high… ♪

417
00:23:05,801 --> 00:23:06,635
[Theresa] …and

418
00:23:08,387 --> 00:23:09,346
too real.

419
00:23:11,014 --> 00:23:12,015
You're kidding.

420
00:23:15,894 --> 00:23:17,062
It's a lot.

421
00:23:17,145 --> 00:23:19,856
♪ You, you keep me hiding ♪

422
00:23:19,940 --> 00:23:20,816
♪ You, you… ♪

423
00:23:20,899 --> 00:23:23,026
[Theresa] It's really a scary thing
for me.

424
00:23:24,444 --> 00:23:26,154
[voice breaking] If I let myself…

425
00:23:29,157 --> 00:23:30,992
be totally vulnerable

426
00:23:32,411 --> 00:23:33,286
with you

427
00:23:34,538 --> 00:23:36,123
and the world,

428
00:23:36,206 --> 00:23:40,460
it's the hugest risk
I will ever have taken.

429
00:23:45,382 --> 00:23:47,008
I just didn't see this coming.

430
00:23:55,767 --> 00:23:58,395
It's just a whole 180
from what we were feeling.

431
00:24:01,648 --> 00:24:04,651
I mean,
we've shared some amazing times together.

432
00:24:06,528 --> 00:24:10,157
And you've been really patient
and very understanding.

433
00:24:14,786 --> 00:24:17,622
But I just worry that it's too much.

434
00:24:20,542 --> 00:24:21,960
You're not up for the fight?

435
00:24:24,171 --> 00:24:25,964
I mean, I'm a fighter.

436
00:24:26,965 --> 00:24:31,761
I'm also just trying to protect myself
and to protect you.

437
00:24:31,845 --> 00:24:32,971
[music fades]

438
00:24:34,431 --> 00:24:35,807
I don't know what to say.

439
00:24:36,850 --> 00:24:42,439
There's a letter that my kids wrote to you
that I wanna read.

440
00:24:42,522 --> 00:24:44,441
[emotional music playing]

441
00:24:47,277 --> 00:24:48,570
[John sniffling]

442
00:24:49,863 --> 00:24:50,864
[Theresa] All right.

443
00:24:50,947 --> 00:24:55,494
"Dear John, it was really nice meeting you
and watching you and our mom together."

444
00:25:00,582 --> 00:25:02,876
[voice breaking] "She just
seemed so happy,

445
00:25:02,959 --> 00:25:05,504
and we haven't seen her
like that in a while."

446
00:25:09,341 --> 00:25:10,300
[exhaling]

447
00:25:10,926 --> 00:25:12,385
Give me a second. [chuckling]

448
00:25:13,970 --> 00:25:17,849
[clearing throat] "We don't know exactly
what the age difference is,

449
00:25:17,933 --> 00:25:21,895
but it doesn't matter to us
after seeing you two together."

450
00:25:23,063 --> 00:25:25,065
"We just want her to be happy."

451
00:25:26,525 --> 00:25:28,485
"And you clearly do that."

452
00:25:28,568 --> 00:25:33,156
"So we support your relationship
and are excited for whatever comes next."

453
00:25:33,240 --> 00:25:34,950
[both chuckling]

454
00:25:35,033 --> 00:25:36,993
"Love, Lauren, Richard, and Michael."

455
00:25:46,461 --> 00:25:51,341
I just need to know if you believe that.
If you're up for that challenge.

456
00:25:52,842 --> 00:25:59,641
And you believe and trust your kids
that they support you.

457
00:26:00,850 --> 00:26:04,062
I need you to wake up every morning and

458
00:26:05,021 --> 00:26:07,983
see and believe and trust--

459
00:26:08,066 --> 00:26:10,402
trust that your kids support this.

460
00:26:10,485 --> 00:26:13,029
And then whatever comes after that,
we can,

461
00:26:14,114 --> 00:26:16,658
you know, go to battle, but

462
00:26:17,284 --> 00:26:18,785
it's up to you.

463
00:26:18,868 --> 00:26:20,161
I've said the whole time.

464
00:26:20,245 --> 00:26:22,122
The ball's in your court, on if

465
00:26:23,665 --> 00:26:24,791
you believe that.

466
00:26:24,874 --> 00:26:26,876
[emotional music playing]

467
00:26:27,460 --> 00:26:30,630
I mean,
it makes me feel a lot more confident

468
00:26:30,714 --> 00:26:34,968
and happy to know they wrote that to you.

469
00:26:35,594 --> 00:26:37,846
-Um, I had no idea what it said.
-Mm-hmm.

470
00:26:38,763 --> 00:26:40,724
And so I don't wanna walk away.

471
00:26:43,143 --> 00:26:47,314
In fact, I wanna walk
towards something with you.

472
00:26:48,732 --> 00:26:51,985
And I don't know exactly what that will be
or what that will look like…

473
00:26:52,068 --> 00:26:53,069
[John] Mm-hmm.

474
00:26:53,153 --> 00:26:57,574
…but I think together,
you know, we can navigate it.

475
00:26:59,075 --> 00:27:02,996
And I think if you are able to support me

476
00:27:03,079 --> 00:27:06,541
and my crazy anxiety… [chuckling]

477
00:27:06,625 --> 00:27:07,542
[John] Mm-hmm.

478
00:27:09,586 --> 00:27:14,549
…you know, we can make this
into something really special.

479
00:27:15,550 --> 00:27:16,551
I think so too.

480
00:27:17,052 --> 00:27:21,306
And I will be able
at some point… [chuckling]

481
00:27:21,389 --> 00:27:24,476
…to maybe scream it from the mountain top.

482
00:27:24,559 --> 00:27:25,435
[John] Mm-hmm.

483
00:27:27,187 --> 00:27:28,063
But

484
00:27:28,730 --> 00:27:32,275
right now, I'm just going to

485
00:27:32,776 --> 00:27:34,194
promise you

486
00:27:35,111 --> 00:27:36,237
and commit to you

487
00:27:36,321 --> 00:27:40,450
to continue to build our relationship
into something real

488
00:27:41,534 --> 00:27:43,161
and something really great.

489
00:27:43,244 --> 00:27:44,954
[Theresa chuckling]

490
00:27:45,038 --> 00:27:49,668
♪ So stay with me ♪

491
00:27:49,751 --> 00:27:50,627
I accept.

492
00:27:50,710 --> 00:27:52,295
[laughing]

493
00:27:52,379 --> 00:27:53,421
Hilarious.

494
00:27:55,256 --> 00:27:57,676
I'm excited for whatever's next.

495
00:27:57,759 --> 00:28:02,555
And I'm thankful for this experience, and

496
00:28:03,640 --> 00:28:06,434
I wanna continue falling in love with you.

497
00:28:08,186 --> 00:28:09,312
So do I.

498
00:28:09,896 --> 00:28:10,772
I love you.

499
00:28:11,481 --> 00:28:12,524
I love you too.

500
00:28:13,441 --> 00:28:15,151
I love you too much to let you go.

501
00:28:16,945 --> 00:28:19,823
-Well, good 'cause you don't have to.
-Hmm. Good answer.

502
00:28:19,906 --> 00:28:25,245
♪ Be with me ♪

503
00:28:27,622 --> 00:28:29,624
[music fades]

504
00:28:31,209 --> 00:28:33,211
["Heaven Is a Wasteland" playing]

505
00:28:35,004 --> 00:28:37,757
♪ All your dreams ♪

506
00:28:38,341 --> 00:28:41,803
♪ And all your fears ♪

507
00:28:41,886 --> 00:28:45,890
♪ You think those worlds collide ♪

508
00:28:47,976 --> 00:28:50,311
[Pfeifer] I'm feeling a little nervous.

509
00:28:50,395 --> 00:28:54,399
I have confidence in Derrick,
and I have confidence in our relationship.

510
00:28:54,482 --> 00:28:58,236
But I still have a lot of fears
about my own future.

511
00:28:59,070 --> 00:29:00,780
♪ Ringing on the bell ♪

512
00:29:00,864 --> 00:29:04,993
♪ I just wanna help, I just wanna know… ♪

513
00:29:05,076 --> 00:29:06,661
[Pfeifer] I mean, I'm 23.

514
00:29:06,745 --> 00:29:10,790
I never imagined
that I would be moving across the country,

515
00:29:10,874 --> 00:29:13,710
moving for a man who has children.

516
00:29:13,793 --> 00:29:18,465
And I think the fear is just coming
from a place of not having experience

517
00:29:18,548 --> 00:29:23,303
in being in that sort of relationship
or being with somebody who has kids.

518
00:29:23,386 --> 00:29:26,681
♪ You say, oh, I don't wanna know… ♪

519
00:29:26,765 --> 00:29:28,266
[Pfeifer] This is a big decision.

520
00:29:28,349 --> 00:29:30,101
♪ If heaven is a wasteland… ♪

521
00:29:30,185 --> 00:29:33,313
[Pfeifer] Essentially, I either walk away
without Derrick,

522
00:29:33,396 --> 00:29:35,231
and I go back to my life in Seattle,

523
00:29:35,315 --> 00:29:37,525
or I leave with Derrick,

524
00:29:37,609 --> 00:29:43,114
and I get something extremely different
than anything I could have ever imagined.

525
00:29:43,198 --> 00:29:46,993
♪ When you let the love inside… ♪

526
00:29:47,076 --> 00:29:48,077
[Pfeifer] I'm conflicted.

527
00:29:48,161 --> 00:29:49,829
It's like, do I risk it all

528
00:29:49,913 --> 00:29:53,291
and change everything I know
for a man and for a relationship?

529
00:29:53,374 --> 00:29:56,628
Or do I make the hard decision to end it?

530
00:29:56,711 --> 00:30:01,257
♪ But you can't find a way to let me in ♪

531
00:30:02,801 --> 00:30:05,512
Not in a million years did I ever think

532
00:30:05,595 --> 00:30:10,266
that I would come into this experience
and find such a real,

533
00:30:10,350 --> 00:30:12,310
genuine, authentic connection.

534
00:30:12,393 --> 00:30:17,273
♪ And you say, oh, I don't wanna know ♪

535
00:30:17,357 --> 00:30:21,903
It feels like I'm getting married.
Honestly, there's a lot weighing on it.

536
00:30:21,986 --> 00:30:25,240
You know, there's a whole life change
that she has to consider.

537
00:30:25,323 --> 00:30:27,784
The last conversation we had,

538
00:30:27,867 --> 00:30:30,745
she definitely had some question marks,
and the nerves are there.

539
00:30:30,829 --> 00:30:34,958
She's scared and giving up her life,
possibly changing her career.

540
00:30:35,041 --> 00:30:36,084
I know that's a lot.

541
00:30:37,168 --> 00:30:40,797
I'm wanting to be sympathetic
and empathetic to that,

542
00:30:40,880 --> 00:30:43,675
but I want her in Dallas with me,
but I'm not sure

543
00:30:43,758 --> 00:30:46,803
that our relationship at this time

544
00:30:46,886 --> 00:30:49,264
is strong enough for her
to make that change.

545
00:30:49,347 --> 00:30:52,600
♪ I just wanna know ♪

546
00:30:53,393 --> 00:30:56,271
♪ Why you can't find a way to let me in ♪

547
00:30:56,354 --> 00:30:57,522
Hello.

548
00:30:58,815 --> 00:31:00,608
-You look amazing.
-Thank you.

549
00:31:00,692 --> 00:31:02,443
[both chuckling]

550
00:31:02,527 --> 00:31:05,655
From the first day,
I didn't know exactly what it was,

551
00:31:05,738 --> 00:31:08,116
but I knew
I was extremely comfortable with you.

552
00:31:08,199 --> 00:31:12,745
I felt at ease, at peace,
from just a quick conversation.

553
00:31:13,329 --> 00:31:17,542
Like, honestly, that moment I knew,
like, deep down that

554
00:31:17,625 --> 00:31:23,047
I didn't wanna even explore
any other options at the retreat.

555
00:31:23,798 --> 00:31:27,427
And, you know, we continued on, moved in.

556
00:31:27,510 --> 00:31:29,137
[both chuckling]

557
00:31:29,220 --> 00:31:31,723
And, you know,
yeah, there was some nerves.

558
00:31:31,806 --> 00:31:35,518
It's not easy to think I'm gonna move in
with someone that I just met,

559
00:31:35,602 --> 00:31:40,398
but through that process, I thought
that it would be great, but I was wrong.

560
00:31:40,481 --> 00:31:43,818
Like, it was much better
than I could have even imagined.

561
00:31:44,944 --> 00:31:47,906
So for me, you know, the journey,

562
00:31:47,989 --> 00:31:50,366
all the laughs and all the good times,

563
00:31:50,450 --> 00:31:54,078
the challenges and tough conversations,
were just as important.

564
00:31:54,829 --> 00:31:58,917
I feel like we've grown every point
along this ride.

565
00:32:00,001 --> 00:32:01,127
[music fades]

566
00:32:01,210 --> 00:32:04,130
From the first day,
I knew that you were special.

567
00:32:05,256 --> 00:32:08,593
Despite our 20-year age gap,

568
00:32:08,676 --> 00:32:12,889
I'm certain that my greatest blessing
was meeting you.

569
00:32:13,723 --> 00:32:16,309
I've always thought about
and dreamed about

570
00:32:16,392 --> 00:32:18,311
the man I would end up with,

571
00:32:18,895 --> 00:32:21,314
but you are far better

572
00:32:22,899 --> 00:32:23,733
than

573
00:32:24,525 --> 00:32:26,444
anybody I could have imagined.

574
00:32:26,527 --> 00:32:28,237
[emotional music playing]

575
00:32:28,947 --> 00:32:30,949
[voice breaking] And now I can't imagine

576
00:32:31,824 --> 00:32:33,618
a future without you in it.

577
00:32:38,957 --> 00:32:43,378
I've been confident in your character
since our first date.

578
00:32:44,420 --> 00:32:45,922
But after moving in,

579
00:32:46,923 --> 00:32:51,636
I'm certain that you are one
of the best men that I've ever met.

580
00:32:59,394 --> 00:33:02,689
It's been an honor
to share this journey with you.

581
00:33:04,524 --> 00:33:07,485
And the closer we get… [chuckling]

582
00:33:07,568 --> 00:33:11,781
…the more I know and the more I see
just how great of a man that you are.

583
00:33:17,912 --> 00:33:18,955
[Pfeifer exhaling]

584
00:33:19,038 --> 00:33:22,917
Derrick, you are a phenomenal person.

585
00:33:24,252 --> 00:33:29,882
Sometimes it seems too good to be true,
but it really is just who you are.

586
00:33:31,050 --> 00:33:33,803
And I feel like I'm the luckiest girl

587
00:33:33,886 --> 00:33:36,723
in the whole world to have found you here.

588
00:33:38,558 --> 00:33:43,271
Many people spend their whole lives
looking for what we found here.

589
00:33:45,356 --> 00:33:48,151
If I were to leave here without you,

590
00:33:48,943 --> 00:33:51,487
I may regret it for the rest of my life.

591
00:33:52,947 --> 00:33:55,116
But if we were to stay together

592
00:33:56,659 --> 00:33:59,245
my life would look wildly different

593
00:33:59,787 --> 00:34:01,456
than I ever anticipated.

594
00:34:04,959 --> 00:34:09,088
I would be sacrificing
my entire life in Seattle.

595
00:34:10,089 --> 00:34:13,134
My friends, my support,

596
00:34:13,718 --> 00:34:16,554
and everything I've built
over the last four years.

597
00:34:21,517 --> 00:34:23,061
But… [chuckling]

598
00:34:23,728 --> 00:34:24,562
…today

599
00:34:25,688 --> 00:34:29,776
I'm putting the unknowns aside,
and I'm trusting my heart.

600
00:34:30,276 --> 00:34:31,110
So

601
00:34:31,861 --> 00:34:35,865
I am 100% committed to moving to Dallas…

602
00:34:35,948 --> 00:34:37,950
[both chuckling]

603
00:34:38,034 --> 00:34:41,412
…and starting our journey together

604
00:34:42,789 --> 00:34:44,040
outside of all this.

605
00:34:44,123 --> 00:34:45,374
[inaudible]

606
00:34:45,458 --> 00:34:47,335
[upbeat music playing]

607
00:34:47,418 --> 00:34:48,586
[Derrick chuckling]

608
00:34:48,669 --> 00:34:50,838
Yeah, that was a lot.

609
00:34:50,922 --> 00:34:52,340
[Pfeifer chuckling]

610
00:34:52,423 --> 00:34:56,552
But I promise
I'm always gonna put in the work.

611
00:34:57,428 --> 00:34:59,013
I'm always gonna try.

612
00:34:59,597 --> 00:35:03,184
I'll always protect you,
and I'll always protect your heart.

613
00:35:03,267 --> 00:35:04,894
Pfeifer, I truly love you.

614
00:35:05,978 --> 00:35:09,398
So this is my gift to you.

615
00:35:09,482 --> 00:35:10,316
[Pfeifer chuckling]

616
00:35:10,399 --> 00:35:15,947
[chuckling] It's… It's a key to our place
that's been my place.

617
00:35:16,030 --> 00:35:17,406
Thank you.

618
00:35:17,490 --> 00:35:20,368
-That means the world to me, truly.
-So… Absolutely.

619
00:35:21,327 --> 00:35:22,453
I don't want you to be alone,

620
00:35:22,537 --> 00:35:24,705
and I don't want you in Dallas
in a separate place.

621
00:35:24,789 --> 00:35:26,958
Literally, my place is our place.

622
00:35:27,041 --> 00:35:29,418
I feel like the luckiest person
in the whole world.

623
00:35:30,086 --> 00:35:31,462
And I have this whole time.

624
00:35:32,755 --> 00:35:34,215
That makes two of us, babe.

625
00:35:35,758 --> 00:35:37,218
♪ I wanna shine ♪

626
00:35:39,387 --> 00:35:42,306
♪ Just need a spark from somewhere ♪

627
00:35:42,390 --> 00:35:43,266
[chuckling]

628
00:35:43,349 --> 00:35:46,018
♪ I wanna shine ♪

629
00:35:46,102 --> 00:35:48,354
♪ Show the world the light ♪

630
00:35:48,437 --> 00:35:50,606
♪ Someday I'll shine ♪

631
00:35:52,859 --> 00:35:54,068
[music fades]

632
00:35:55,069 --> 00:35:58,781
["I'll Never Let Go"
by Nine One One playing]

633
00:35:58,865 --> 00:36:02,034
♪ I think I just got one more breath ♪

634
00:36:02,118 --> 00:36:05,371
♪ Broken heart is beating
Outta my chest ♪

635
00:36:05,454 --> 00:36:08,875
♪ Tired of runnin'
I just need some rest ♪

636
00:36:09,625 --> 00:36:12,378
I came here to be able to open my heart up

637
00:36:12,461 --> 00:36:16,132
to find someone
that I wanna spend my life with, you know?

638
00:36:16,215 --> 00:36:18,134
When I think about my future,

639
00:36:18,217 --> 00:36:21,179
I just wanna be happily married
to a wonderful guy.

640
00:36:21,262 --> 00:36:25,683
And despite all of our ups and downs,
I think it could be Chris.

641
00:36:25,766 --> 00:36:29,770
♪ I got one hand
On the edge of this cliff ♪

642
00:36:29,854 --> 00:36:31,856
♪ And I can't see the ground ♪

643
00:36:31,939 --> 00:36:33,941
[Leah] I'm like a hopeless romantic,
you know?

644
00:36:34,025 --> 00:36:36,944
So I would like
for this to work out with Chris.

645
00:36:37,028 --> 00:36:38,237
We have something here.

646
00:36:38,321 --> 00:36:43,284
We are finally in a great space,
but this step is big.

647
00:36:43,367 --> 00:36:45,578
I'm 41, he's 26, you know?

648
00:36:45,661 --> 00:36:48,623
So is he really ready?

649
00:36:49,123 --> 00:36:50,208
I'm not sure.

650
00:36:50,833 --> 00:36:53,377
I can't give up hope, regardless.

651
00:36:53,461 --> 00:36:56,422
♪ Don't have any blood left to bleed… ♪

652
00:36:56,505 --> 00:36:57,798
I feel very uneasy.

653
00:36:57,882 --> 00:36:59,926
Clearly, me and Leah
have love for each other

654
00:37:00,009 --> 00:37:02,220
because we've been
on an emotional roller coaster.

655
00:37:02,303 --> 00:37:03,804
If we didn't have love for each other,

656
00:37:03,888 --> 00:37:06,140
as soon as it got really dark,
we wouldn't be here anymore.

657
00:37:06,224 --> 00:37:09,435
The question was, and still is,
are we in love?

658
00:37:09,518 --> 00:37:12,480
♪ Oh no, I'll never let go… ♪

659
00:37:12,563 --> 00:37:16,150
Leah is somebody
that I have built such a connection with

660
00:37:16,234 --> 00:37:17,568
and a care for

661
00:37:17,652 --> 00:37:21,322
that I want to look past
what we've dealt with

662
00:37:21,405 --> 00:37:23,157
and try to move forward.

663
00:37:23,241 --> 00:37:25,993
At the same time,
I'm trying to figure out,

664
00:37:26,077 --> 00:37:28,955
am I ready for this, or am I not?

665
00:37:29,038 --> 00:37:31,958
Because it's a decision
that will affect me forever.

666
00:37:34,335 --> 00:37:35,920
Logic, emotions,

667
00:37:36,003 --> 00:37:38,130
my head, my gut, which one do I listen to?

668
00:37:38,214 --> 00:37:39,924
And there's so many voices,

669
00:37:40,007 --> 00:37:43,970
whether it's outside or in our own heads
that are telling us to do a certain thing.

670
00:37:44,053 --> 00:37:47,556
And I'm trying to just ignore everything
that society says

671
00:37:47,640 --> 00:37:51,310
should happen
and listen to what I know is true,

672
00:37:51,394 --> 00:37:53,980
which is the… the voice in my heart
telling me what is right.

673
00:37:57,233 --> 00:37:58,401
[Leah] Aw.

674
00:38:00,486 --> 00:38:02,321
-[Leah] You look good.
-Hi. Thank you.

675
00:38:02,405 --> 00:38:03,781
[Leah] You look beautiful.

676
00:38:03,864 --> 00:38:04,782
[Leah grunting]

677
00:38:05,449 --> 00:38:06,534
[Chris sniffles]

678
00:38:06,617 --> 00:38:07,702
[exhales deeply]

679
00:38:08,786 --> 00:38:09,745
[music fades]

680
00:38:09,829 --> 00:38:15,751
Prior to this retreat, I was praying
that God would send me my person.

681
00:38:16,252 --> 00:38:19,088
And I was really hoping,
maybe they'll be at this retreat.

682
00:38:19,630 --> 00:38:21,465
And then I met you.

683
00:38:22,049 --> 00:38:26,637
And then from our first conversation,
I knew we had something special.

684
00:38:27,138 --> 00:38:30,224
And our first kiss was fire.

685
00:38:30,308 --> 00:38:33,227
You lit something inside of me
that I thought was gone.

686
00:38:33,311 --> 00:38:34,937
[laid-back music playing]

687
00:38:35,688 --> 00:38:39,150
I know we've had our fair share
of ups and downs,

688
00:38:40,192 --> 00:38:43,321
but for me,
the good times outweigh the bad.

689
00:38:49,785 --> 00:38:53,998
You challenge me to do and be better.

690
00:38:54,081 --> 00:38:55,666
And I thank you for that.

691
00:38:57,251 --> 00:39:03,090
Thank you for hearing, seeing,
and always telling me to just be me.

692
00:39:04,717 --> 00:39:05,718
Thank you.

693
00:39:06,594 --> 00:39:07,678
[music fades]

694
00:39:07,762 --> 00:39:12,266
From day one, we've talked about
being honest and being open.

695
00:39:12,350 --> 00:39:16,562
And I think that the most important thing
I wanna highlight is

696
00:39:17,396 --> 00:39:20,107
just how honest and open
you've allowed me to feel.

697
00:39:20,608 --> 00:39:22,193
You've challenged me.

698
00:39:22,276 --> 00:39:25,488
You've helped me grow.
And I hope I've done the same.

699
00:39:26,155 --> 00:39:31,160
I can't thank you enough
for the experiences that we have lived.

700
00:39:31,243 --> 00:39:32,787
[emotional music playing]

701
00:39:37,291 --> 00:39:39,043
We've had ups and downs,

702
00:39:39,126 --> 00:39:42,755
and there's no doubting
that there has been difficult times,

703
00:39:42,838 --> 00:39:44,757
and there's been beautiful times.

704
00:39:44,840 --> 00:39:46,592
And I wanna remember

705
00:39:47,635 --> 00:39:48,677
both.

706
00:39:50,429 --> 00:39:52,598
I think that we do need to

707
00:39:53,432 --> 00:39:55,267
continue to be honest with each other.

708
00:39:56,018 --> 00:39:56,852
And…

709
00:39:57,770 --> 00:40:01,440
You know, we've talked about
our age difference many times,

710
00:40:02,024 --> 00:40:06,237
and maybe
the age gap was harder than we thought.

711
00:40:07,363 --> 00:40:08,197
But

712
00:40:08,739 --> 00:40:09,824
here we are.

713
00:40:09,907 --> 00:40:11,909
And I think we've both made a decision

714
00:40:11,992 --> 00:40:14,620
that will impact our lives
and our families.

715
00:40:14,703 --> 00:40:17,289
And I just hope and pray
that it's the right one.

716
00:40:19,208 --> 00:40:24,130
I think I just wanted you
to be able to see what I see.

717
00:40:24,213 --> 00:40:28,342
And I wanted to show you the world.
I wanna see more with you.

718
00:40:28,426 --> 00:40:29,427
[Chris] Hmm.

719
00:40:29,510 --> 00:40:33,097
And I wanna get you
out of your comfort zone, you know?

720
00:40:33,180 --> 00:40:35,850
And I do wanna challenge you
in all the ways that I can.

721
00:40:35,933 --> 00:40:38,686
And I love it when you challenge me too.

722
00:40:38,769 --> 00:40:42,606
I can see myself growing with you,
building with you.

723
00:40:42,690 --> 00:40:44,817
Um, I know it's not easy.

724
00:40:45,776 --> 00:40:49,113
I understand that we weren't at our best.

725
00:40:50,156 --> 00:40:53,492
And it's like, I wanna see
you be at your best and me at my best

726
00:40:53,576 --> 00:40:55,786
and see how we can be our best together.

727
00:40:55,870 --> 00:40:56,871
[exhaling]

728
00:40:58,956 --> 00:41:01,709
I would like to commit to you.

729
00:41:02,209 --> 00:41:03,335
[music fades]

730
00:41:04,336 --> 00:41:05,546
[sniffles]

731
00:41:05,629 --> 00:41:07,131
Excuse me. [clearing throat]

732
00:41:09,133 --> 00:41:09,967
So…

733
00:41:11,302 --> 00:41:12,136
Wow.

734
00:41:15,222 --> 00:41:17,224
[somber music playing]

735
00:41:20,561 --> 00:41:24,607
[Chris] So we've talked about
our differences, and we laid out

736
00:41:25,357 --> 00:41:27,610
what we want out of a partner
from day one.

737
00:41:27,693 --> 00:41:30,613
I think we both wanna have a family.
I think we both wanna settle down.

738
00:41:30,696 --> 00:41:32,781
I think maybe we want it
at different paces.

739
00:41:32,865 --> 00:41:34,617
I do think that the age difference

740
00:41:34,700 --> 00:41:36,994
did cause an unnecessary pressure
on both of us

741
00:41:37,077 --> 00:41:39,288
and put us in a situation where…

742
00:41:42,082 --> 00:41:43,918
for the first time in my life,

743
00:41:44,001 --> 00:41:46,128
I felt like
it was hard for me to be myself.

744
00:41:46,212 --> 00:41:49,006
♪ Now I'm floating ♪

745
00:41:49,632 --> 00:41:51,800
♪ Lift me off the ground ♪

746
00:41:51,884 --> 00:41:55,387
♪ My heart is open ♪

747
00:41:57,723 --> 00:42:01,810
And that's why ultimately,
I feel that this partnership is not right.

748
00:42:01,894 --> 00:42:05,439
♪ Now I'm floating ♪

749
00:42:05,981 --> 00:42:07,775
♪ Lift me off the ground ♪

750
00:42:07,858 --> 00:42:11,737
♪ My heart is open ♪

751
00:42:16,033 --> 00:42:17,117
And ultimately,

752
00:42:18,369 --> 00:42:21,830
I can't move forward with something
that I don't feel is 100% right.

753
00:42:22,456 --> 00:42:24,166
I don't feel like that's fair to you.

754
00:42:24,250 --> 00:42:26,627
I don't feel like
that's fair to your family or mine.

755
00:42:27,586 --> 00:42:30,714
So I… I am deciding
to end this relationship here.

756
00:42:31,840 --> 00:42:34,885
♪ Now I'm floating ♪

757
00:42:39,014 --> 00:42:44,186
Honestly, I will cherish every single
freaking moment and experience.

758
00:42:44,687 --> 00:42:47,690
And I hope that this isn't
the end of a friendship that I

759
00:42:48,524 --> 00:42:49,650
truly value.

760
00:42:51,360 --> 00:42:53,279
-Seriously, thank you.
-You're welcome.

761
00:42:54,446 --> 00:42:56,448
You are a beautiful person inside and out.

762
00:42:58,951 --> 00:42:59,910
Can I have a hug?

763
00:43:11,380 --> 00:43:12,548
It was nice meeting you.

764
00:43:12,631 --> 00:43:13,591
[music fades]

765
00:43:14,341 --> 00:43:15,342
[Chris sniffling]

766
00:43:17,428 --> 00:43:19,847
[somber music playing]

767
00:43:24,184 --> 00:43:25,978
[Leah] Chris didn't really wanna be
with me.

768
00:43:26,061 --> 00:43:28,647
If somebody really likes you,
really wants to be with you,

769
00:43:28,731 --> 00:43:29,815
they'll be with you.

770
00:43:29,898 --> 00:43:30,774
And they'll fight.

771
00:43:31,358 --> 00:43:34,945
That's why I was willing to give us a shot
and see if we could get it together.

772
00:43:35,029 --> 00:43:37,698
But he wasn't.

773
00:43:38,741 --> 00:43:40,200
I've always wanted to be chosen,

774
00:43:40,284 --> 00:43:42,244
but I wasn't gonna beg someone
to choose me.

775
00:43:42,328 --> 00:43:44,371
I also can't turn a boy into a man either.

776
00:43:44,455 --> 00:43:48,542
♪ At least I gave my all ♪

777
00:43:48,626 --> 00:43:53,631
I was hoping to find my love
here at the retreat, but I didn't.

778
00:43:54,131 --> 00:43:57,092
Overall, I think
I've just learned who I am.

779
00:43:57,176 --> 00:44:00,179
And I'm a very strong,
intelligent, beautiful woman.

780
00:44:00,262 --> 00:44:04,183
And my future partner
will be happy to be with me.

781
00:44:04,266 --> 00:44:06,769
And I'm excited for him.

782
00:44:06,852 --> 00:44:09,438
♪ No words left to say ♪

783
00:44:09,521 --> 00:44:12,107
♪ 'Cause I'll be okay ♪

784
00:44:12,191 --> 00:44:14,193
♪ I'm stronger now ♪

785
00:44:15,444 --> 00:44:16,445
[music fades]

786
00:44:17,571 --> 00:44:21,200
["Wait For Me"
by Raphael Lake & Ben Fisher playing]

787
00:44:27,665 --> 00:44:31,460
I'm definitely a little bit unsure.

788
00:44:33,671 --> 00:44:37,216
You know, the last few days,
I've definitely been in my head.

789
00:44:37,299 --> 00:44:39,468
I mean, there's so much fear there

790
00:44:40,052 --> 00:44:42,346
that the age gap will be too much,

791
00:44:42,429 --> 00:44:44,390
where we're at in our lives
will be too much,

792
00:44:44,473 --> 00:44:46,350
the timing, the distance.

793
00:44:46,433 --> 00:44:48,936
♪ Come and drink this water ♪

794
00:44:49,561 --> 00:44:52,189
♪ 'Cause my cup, it overflows ♪

795
00:44:52,272 --> 00:44:57,486
Are we too far away
from where the other person is in life?

796
00:44:57,569 --> 00:45:02,825
And I would be lying if I said
that that still doesn't cross my mind

797
00:45:02,908 --> 00:45:04,618
every single day with Libby.

798
00:45:06,787 --> 00:45:10,124
There's definitely
two sides going back and forth

799
00:45:10,207 --> 00:45:12,710
that's, like, it's not gonna work.

800
00:45:12,793 --> 00:45:17,005
One's going off of previous experiences
and all of the things

801
00:45:17,089 --> 00:45:18,841
that haven't worked.

802
00:45:18,924 --> 00:45:21,385
And then the other side of it is,
like, my heart.

803
00:45:21,969 --> 00:45:24,388
♪ Can you see the shoes ♪

804
00:45:24,471 --> 00:45:28,058
♪ Worn out upon my feet ♪

805
00:45:28,142 --> 00:45:30,561
[Libby] I'm a bit nervous going into this.

806
00:45:30,644 --> 00:45:33,856
Me and Andrew have been so solid
this entire experience.

807
00:45:33,939 --> 00:45:36,567
I don't think
I expected to get to this point

808
00:45:36,650 --> 00:45:39,945
this morning and be questioning things.

809
00:45:40,028 --> 00:45:41,530
[song continues]

810
00:45:42,197 --> 00:45:43,824
[Libby] But the past couple days,

811
00:45:43,907 --> 00:45:48,912
he's brought up the thing about
him worrying about taking from my life

812
00:45:48,996 --> 00:45:51,206
and the distance between us.

813
00:45:51,290 --> 00:45:54,418
So I'm spiraling a little bit too.

814
00:45:54,501 --> 00:45:58,255
Andrew's doubts
are putting more ideas in my head.

815
00:45:58,338 --> 00:46:01,759
I'm… I'm like, wait, is he right?
Is this gonna work?

816
00:46:01,842 --> 00:46:05,179
♪ Every single time… ♪

817
00:46:05,262 --> 00:46:07,473
[Libby] His doubts
have now become my doubts.

818
00:46:07,556 --> 00:46:11,894
And I think all of this
is really starting to freak me out.

819
00:46:11,977 --> 00:46:14,646
♪ Wait for you ♪

820
00:46:15,481 --> 00:46:17,816
♪ Will you wait for me too? ♪

821
00:46:17,900 --> 00:46:19,735
[Libby] I don't know how he's feeling.

822
00:46:19,818 --> 00:46:25,741
And I don't know if he's decided
that the age difference, it's too much.

823
00:46:25,824 --> 00:46:27,618
So, I think it's very possible

824
00:46:27,701 --> 00:46:29,953
that Andrew is gonna break my heart
on this mountain today.

825
00:46:30,037 --> 00:46:32,706
♪ Every single time ♪

826
00:46:33,832 --> 00:46:35,834
♪ In this asylum ♪

827
00:46:36,627 --> 00:46:40,923
♪ I will sit outside and wait for you ♪

828
00:46:41,006 --> 00:46:41,840
[Andrew] Awesome.

829
00:46:42,424 --> 00:46:43,884
-You look beautiful.
-Thanks.

830
00:46:44,551 --> 00:46:47,721
-Mm-hmm.
-You look handsome. It's true.

831
00:46:50,140 --> 00:46:52,226
[music fades]

832
00:46:52,309 --> 00:46:55,187
I came here hoping

833
00:46:56,396 --> 00:46:57,648
to find something,

834
00:46:57,731 --> 00:47:02,069
but I don't think I truly believed
that I would find something real.

835
00:47:02,653 --> 00:47:06,949
There's a part of me
that wonders if this works

836
00:47:07,032 --> 00:47:09,952
when we're outside of the bubble
that we've been living in.

837
00:47:11,495 --> 00:47:14,122
You're 22. I'm 38.

838
00:47:15,332 --> 00:47:16,500
That's a big gap.

839
00:47:18,126 --> 00:47:21,129
Your life is just getting started.

840
00:47:21,755 --> 00:47:26,760
You're figuring out who you are,
what you want, where you're going.

841
00:47:28,595 --> 00:47:32,015
And I'm settled in the life
that I've already built.

842
00:47:33,433 --> 00:47:39,314
The biggest fear for me
is keeping you from your dreams

843
00:47:40,440 --> 00:47:43,193
even though you're a part of mine.

844
00:47:47,322 --> 00:47:49,616
I understand what you mean.

845
00:47:49,700 --> 00:47:52,828
And obviously
I've been thinking about that too.

846
00:47:52,911 --> 00:47:56,290
You know that sometimes
it's hard for me to really…

847
00:47:56,373 --> 00:47:57,457
[exhales deeply]

848
00:47:58,292 --> 00:48:00,502
…express how I'm feeling with my words.

849
00:48:00,586 --> 00:48:05,257
And sometimes it's better
and easier for me to write it out.

850
00:48:06,091 --> 00:48:07,593
So I wrote you something.

851
00:48:09,678 --> 00:48:11,680
[both chuckling]

852
00:48:15,225 --> 00:48:16,977
"Coming into this experience,

853
00:48:17,978 --> 00:48:19,104
I hoped for the best,

854
00:48:19,187 --> 00:48:22,399
but I truly never thought
that I'd meet someone like you."

855
00:48:23,025 --> 00:48:25,611
"You have everything
that I've ever wanted in a guy,

856
00:48:25,694 --> 00:48:29,156
which is incredibly rare because
that includes some outrageous things,

857
00:48:29,239 --> 00:48:32,409
like, someone who will sing
Taylor Swift with me and manifest."

858
00:48:32,492 --> 00:48:33,785
[chuckling]

859
00:48:33,869 --> 00:48:37,205
"You challenged me to open up in ways
I never have before

860
00:48:37,873 --> 00:48:41,001
and brought out a side of me
that not many people get to see."

861
00:48:41,084 --> 00:48:44,129
"I love the way you talk
and care about your daughters,

862
00:48:44,212 --> 00:48:46,506
and the way you protect them
in every aspect

863
00:48:46,590 --> 00:48:48,175
shows what a great dad you are."

864
00:48:49,259 --> 00:48:51,386
"Hearing about your experiences
as a father

865
00:48:51,470 --> 00:48:54,431
has been one of the many things
that drew me to you."

866
00:48:54,514 --> 00:48:57,851
"With that being said,
I know that comes with a lot of weight,

867
00:48:57,935 --> 00:48:59,811
and it's something I don't take lightly."

868
00:48:59,895 --> 00:49:04,274
"And I know that you're worried
about our age gap

869
00:49:04,358 --> 00:49:06,860
and the fact that I'm 22,

870
00:49:06,944 --> 00:49:09,446
and you think that there's a possibility

871
00:49:10,030 --> 00:49:12,866
that you could be taking
too much from my life."

872
00:49:13,867 --> 00:49:17,037
"And it has me thinking
the last couple days

873
00:49:17,120 --> 00:49:18,997
about what it is that I really want."

874
00:49:19,081 --> 00:49:20,666
[emotional music playing]

875
00:49:21,291 --> 00:49:25,754
And I really feel like
you'd only be an addition to my life.

876
00:49:34,346 --> 00:49:38,642
I've had a lot of time to think as well.

877
00:49:39,685 --> 00:49:40,560
And

878
00:49:41,603 --> 00:49:42,688
the truth is…

879
00:49:45,816 --> 00:49:49,111
no matter how much I doubt the age gap,

880
00:49:50,070 --> 00:49:52,906
the distance, the timing,

881
00:49:53,949 --> 00:49:57,828
I don't doubt the way I feel
when I'm with you.

882
00:49:57,911 --> 00:49:59,454
[hopeful music playing]

883
00:49:59,538 --> 00:50:02,874
When we first got here,

884
00:50:04,042 --> 00:50:08,380
you asked me if I ever thought

885
00:50:09,256 --> 00:50:12,426
I could fall in love
before the end of this.

886
00:50:13,593 --> 00:50:15,220
And I remember saying…

887
00:50:17,347 --> 00:50:19,057
I think someone could. [sighing]

888
00:50:20,100 --> 00:50:23,437
But I didn't think
I would be that someone.

889
00:50:25,939 --> 00:50:27,107
I was wrong.

890
00:50:27,190 --> 00:50:29,026
[Libby chuckling]

891
00:50:29,735 --> 00:50:30,944
[Andrew] Because I have.

892
00:50:32,404 --> 00:50:33,739
And I do love you.

893
00:50:36,908 --> 00:50:40,871
You have opened up things in me

894
00:50:41,788 --> 00:50:44,374
I thought were shut down for good.

895
00:50:44,458 --> 00:50:47,961
I've been waiting a long time
for something like this.

896
00:50:49,588 --> 00:50:50,964
A really long time.

897
00:50:51,465 --> 00:50:54,217
And I feel like it's finally my turn.

898
00:50:55,635 --> 00:50:58,638
Like this might actually be

899
00:50:59,264 --> 00:51:02,476
my rom-com happy ending.

900
00:51:02,559 --> 00:51:03,393
[both chuckling]

901
00:51:03,477 --> 00:51:06,063
-I know, I'm so cheesy.
-No, I love it.

902
00:51:06,146 --> 00:51:08,023
[both chuckling lightly]

903
00:51:09,024 --> 00:51:11,276
I've been thinking a lot about

904
00:51:12,736 --> 00:51:14,154
what happens after this.

905
00:51:15,739 --> 00:51:18,909
And I don't know

906
00:51:19,659 --> 00:51:23,246
what your generation calls it these days.

907
00:51:23,955 --> 00:51:25,123
Hard launch.

908
00:51:25,207 --> 00:51:26,208
[laughing]

909
00:51:26,291 --> 00:51:27,626
[Andrew] Soft launch.

910
00:51:28,710 --> 00:51:33,090
Probably something way cooler
than what I'm about to say.

911
00:51:34,216 --> 00:51:35,050
But

912
00:51:35,759 --> 00:51:40,305
I would really love to leave here
with you as my girlfriend.

913
00:51:40,388 --> 00:51:42,182
Do you want to hard-launch me?

914
00:51:42,265 --> 00:51:43,809
-[laughs]
-I want to hard-launch you.

915
00:51:43,892 --> 00:51:44,893
[both laughing]

916
00:51:44,976 --> 00:51:47,145
I'm gonna need you to answer
before I continue.

917
00:51:47,229 --> 00:51:49,064
Okay. Okay.

918
00:51:50,357 --> 00:51:51,983
I want to commit to you,

919
00:51:52,651 --> 00:51:55,904
and I want a relationship with you
outside of here

920
00:51:55,987 --> 00:51:59,908
because I also love you too. [chuckling]

921
00:52:00,492 --> 00:52:01,576
[softly] Come here.

922
00:52:03,453 --> 00:52:05,122
-Oh my God.
-[chuckles]

923
00:52:09,209 --> 00:52:10,043
All right.

924
00:52:10,127 --> 00:52:13,296
So, there is one more thing.

925
00:52:14,089 --> 00:52:15,298
My daughters.

926
00:52:16,133 --> 00:52:20,345
They are the most important thing to me.

927
00:52:21,596 --> 00:52:24,724
With you, you make me feel safe.

928
00:52:25,350 --> 00:52:27,853
You make it feel safe to open up

929
00:52:28,687 --> 00:52:30,021
that box again.

930
00:52:31,273 --> 00:52:35,652
And I would really love
for you to come to Baltimore,

931
00:52:36,153 --> 00:52:41,408
for you to meet my daughters
because I do see you

932
00:52:42,409 --> 00:52:45,245
in my future forever.

933
00:52:45,328 --> 00:52:47,747
That means the world coming from you.

934
00:52:48,790 --> 00:52:50,041
That's really sweet.

935
00:52:50,709 --> 00:52:51,877
I think that

936
00:52:52,836 --> 00:52:56,548
I know how important
your daughters are to you.

937
00:52:56,631 --> 00:52:58,967
And I want you to know that

938
00:52:59,926 --> 00:53:03,471
I think that that's something
that's equally important to me.

939
00:53:03,555 --> 00:53:05,891
And I think that

940
00:53:05,974 --> 00:53:10,103
if you were willing to open
that part of your life to me,

941
00:53:10,187 --> 00:53:11,271
I would be

942
00:53:12,189 --> 00:53:14,733
happy to be a part of it. [chuckling]

943
00:53:15,942 --> 00:53:18,153
I really do love you.

944
00:53:20,947 --> 00:53:22,866
I really do love you too. [chuckles]

945
00:53:22,949 --> 00:53:25,410
♪ Whoa ♪

946
00:53:25,493 --> 00:53:29,873
♪ I will be there for you ♪

947
00:53:29,956 --> 00:53:31,875
♪ Oh, for you ♪

948
00:53:34,336 --> 00:53:35,545
[music fades]

949
00:53:36,379 --> 00:53:38,381
["See You Soon" by Lynden Arden playing]

950
00:53:41,843 --> 00:53:44,221
[Vanessa] I'm in a really good place
in my life.

951
00:53:44,304 --> 00:53:46,848
I'm getting ready to turn 50 years old.

952
00:53:46,932 --> 00:53:50,143
I've never felt more comfortable
in my body,

953
00:53:50,227 --> 00:53:52,437
financially, spiritually, everything.

954
00:53:52,520 --> 00:53:55,232
And the one thing that is missing is love.

955
00:53:55,315 --> 00:53:59,152
♪ And I know I'll see you soon ♪

956
00:54:00,153 --> 00:54:02,697
[Vanessa] I thought
I was never gonna find love again,

957
00:54:02,781 --> 00:54:06,618
but Logan makes my heart feel full,
and he gives me hope,

958
00:54:06,701 --> 00:54:09,746
and he makes me feel alive.

959
00:54:09,829 --> 00:54:13,792
♪ So no more goodbyes ♪

960
00:54:14,334 --> 00:54:17,087
♪ Build it all with you… ♪

961
00:54:17,170 --> 00:54:20,298
[Vanessa] Logan and I
have had a lot of ups and downs.

962
00:54:20,382 --> 00:54:24,302
We're finally at a really good place,
except for the question mark,

963
00:54:24,386 --> 00:54:26,096
is he ready for a commitment?

964
00:54:26,179 --> 00:54:30,392
Is Logan gonna take a step forward
and be ready for a commitment?

965
00:54:30,475 --> 00:54:35,480
Or is he ready to go back
to his party-boy lifestyle in Dallas,

966
00:54:35,563 --> 00:54:39,567
and I'll go back to Ohio
and start over from square one?

967
00:54:40,235 --> 00:54:44,197
♪ I'll see the sun ♪

968
00:54:46,825 --> 00:54:51,162
[Vanessa] The thought of going home alone
would just be devastating.

969
00:54:51,246 --> 00:54:52,789
I don't want this to end.

970
00:54:54,207 --> 00:54:58,211
♪ There's been days
When I've lost myself ♪

971
00:54:58,295 --> 00:55:00,964
[Logan] I've obviously
fallen in love with Vanessa.

972
00:55:01,047 --> 00:55:04,092
Our love feels so in sync.

973
00:55:04,175 --> 00:55:08,930
It feels like something that I really,
to be honest, I didn't think I would find.

974
00:55:09,014 --> 00:55:12,392
♪ If I could write ♪

975
00:55:13,393 --> 00:55:16,062
♪ What fills my bones… ♪

976
00:55:16,146 --> 00:55:20,066
[Logan] She loves me in a way
that I haven't been loved before.

977
00:55:21,109 --> 00:55:23,945
It's crazy
that she's 20 years older than me,

978
00:55:24,029 --> 00:55:25,447
but regardless of age,

979
00:55:25,530 --> 00:55:28,658
I don't know
if I'm gonna find anybody like Vanessa.

980
00:55:32,245 --> 00:55:35,081
Going into the commitment ceremony,
the unknown is,

981
00:55:35,165 --> 00:55:37,792
am I gonna be able to give her
what she truly wants?

982
00:55:38,752 --> 00:55:40,045
There's a chance that,

983
00:55:41,004 --> 00:55:43,965
you know, I get up there and see
this woman I've fallen in love with,

984
00:55:44,049 --> 00:55:45,967
and it's picture-perfect.

985
00:55:46,051 --> 00:55:47,719
And there's a chance

986
00:55:47,802 --> 00:55:50,513
that I might not be able
to meet those expectations.

987
00:55:50,597 --> 00:55:51,723
There's a chance that

988
00:55:52,891 --> 00:55:55,518
we walk away without each other.

989
00:55:56,853 --> 00:56:00,523
♪ See the sun ♪

990
00:56:00,607 --> 00:56:01,983
-[Vanessa] Hi.
-Hey.

991
00:56:02,067 --> 00:56:03,443
[Vanessa] You look so cute.

992
00:56:04,027 --> 00:56:06,237
-[Logan] Good to see you.
-I'm so nervous.

993
00:56:06,321 --> 00:56:07,864
-Yeah, right?
-Yeah.

994
00:56:10,700 --> 00:56:14,037
Can I hold your hands?
It helps me with my nerves.

995
00:56:15,038 --> 00:56:16,164
[music fades]

996
00:56:16,247 --> 00:56:20,794
Logan, when I first met you,
you were such a gentleman.

997
00:56:20,877 --> 00:56:22,962
We had an amazing conversation.

998
00:56:23,046 --> 00:56:26,174
And then we go out
on our date… [chuckling]

999
00:56:26,257 --> 00:56:29,969
…and you tell me you're worried
about the optics of dating an older woman.

1000
00:56:30,053 --> 00:56:33,890
And I'm like, "What is up with this guy?
I can't figure him out."

1001
00:56:33,973 --> 00:56:36,518
So I was like, forget it, you know?

1002
00:56:36,601 --> 00:56:41,272
But you did a few things
that were really important to me.

1003
00:56:42,065 --> 00:56:43,983
[emotional music playing]

1004
00:56:44,609 --> 00:56:46,236
You apologized,

1005
00:56:46,319 --> 00:56:48,655
and you took accountability
for your actions.

1006
00:56:48,738 --> 00:56:50,365
And that meant a lot to me.

1007
00:56:50,448 --> 00:56:53,910
So I decided
I really wanna give this guy a chance.

1008
00:56:56,496 --> 00:56:57,956
[inhaling] Um…

1009
00:56:58,998 --> 00:56:59,833
Yeah.

1010
00:57:00,583 --> 00:57:03,420
I feel that with you

1011
00:57:03,503 --> 00:57:08,091
I opened up more than anyone else
I've ever opened up to in my life.

1012
00:57:08,174 --> 00:57:09,551
I feel safe with you.

1013
00:57:09,634 --> 00:57:11,803
And that's something
that's so important to me.

1014
00:57:13,471 --> 00:57:16,599
I was really in a dark time
before I came here.

1015
00:57:16,683 --> 00:57:19,978
You know, I lost my mom,
and it's been almost a year.

1016
00:57:20,061 --> 00:57:23,773
And being with you,
you brought light back into my life.

1017
00:57:23,857 --> 00:57:26,359
And I'm happy that you're here.

1018
00:57:26,943 --> 00:57:28,236
I'm happy to be here.

1019
00:57:28,319 --> 00:57:30,405
[both chuckling]

1020
00:57:30,488 --> 00:57:31,656
[music fades]

1021
00:57:31,739 --> 00:57:37,787
Yeah. I mean, our journey has been
everything but picture-perfect.

1022
00:57:38,288 --> 00:57:41,916
Despite the whirlwind,
we found a connection.

1023
00:57:42,917 --> 00:57:48,381
And I think, you know, you challenged me,
and you asked me the tough questions

1024
00:57:48,465 --> 00:57:53,011
and wondered
if I was ready for a commitment,

1025
00:57:53,094 --> 00:57:55,054
ready for something serious, or…

1026
00:57:56,389 --> 00:57:58,558
-…I was just another fling for you.
-Yeah.

1027
00:57:58,641 --> 00:58:00,310
[contemplative music playing]

1028
00:58:00,393 --> 00:58:04,689
But the reality is
you have made me into a better man.

1029
00:58:05,482 --> 00:58:10,820
And going on this process with you,
it was like nothing I could imagine.

1030
00:58:11,404 --> 00:58:16,201
I'm glad after all those hardships
that we landed in this place of peace

1031
00:58:16,284 --> 00:58:18,745
and love, and there's no more fighting.

1032
00:58:18,828 --> 00:58:23,208
And I don't wanna go back
to my old life without you in it.

1033
00:58:23,291 --> 00:58:25,418
So that being said,

1034
00:58:25,502 --> 00:58:30,465
I would like to bring you into my world
and meet my family,

1035
00:58:30,548 --> 00:58:33,092
meet my friends, and be by my side.

1036
00:58:33,176 --> 00:58:35,720
And, you know, as we move forward,

1037
00:58:35,803 --> 00:58:38,097
I'm hoping you would do the same for me

1038
00:58:38,181 --> 00:58:41,726
and allow me to meet your friends
and your family

1039
00:58:41,809 --> 00:58:43,478
and be a part of your world

1040
00:58:43,561 --> 00:58:45,855
'cause I really want you
to be part of my world.

1041
00:58:45,939 --> 00:58:47,440
[music fades]

1042
00:58:47,524 --> 00:58:48,650
[birds chirping]

1043
00:58:51,486 --> 00:58:53,488
[pensive music playing]

1044
00:58:57,075 --> 00:58:59,077
Is this the part you break up with me?

1045
00:59:03,831 --> 00:59:05,083
[Logan] Here's the thing.

1046
00:59:05,166 --> 00:59:06,960
[pensive music continues]

1047
00:59:11,589 --> 00:59:14,092
Our journey
has had a lot of ups and downs.

1048
00:59:14,175 --> 00:59:15,843
[dramatic sting]

1049
00:59:15,927 --> 00:59:18,846
And the chaos that we've found

1050
00:59:20,098 --> 00:59:22,183
is… It's--

1051
00:59:24,102 --> 00:59:28,398
You know, is that toxic,
or was it healthy, right?

1052
00:59:30,191 --> 00:59:34,070
And it's really made me question

1053
00:59:35,905 --> 00:59:39,659
whether or not it's… it's…
it's good for us, right?

1054
00:59:41,869 --> 00:59:42,996
The time alone

1055
00:59:44,581 --> 00:59:49,877
has made me realize
that maybe I'm not the man for you.

1056
00:59:49,961 --> 00:59:51,337
[somber music playing]

1057
00:59:51,421 --> 00:59:52,338
[Logan] Maybe

1058
00:59:53,965 --> 00:59:55,300
I'm not good enough for you.

1059
00:59:55,383 --> 00:59:56,593
I truly questioned that.

1060
01:00:01,764 --> 01:00:05,268
[sighing] It's--
It has been difficult and…

1061
01:00:06,728 --> 01:00:09,731
I don't wanna make promises
that I can't keep.

1062
01:00:12,025 --> 01:00:12,859
So…

1063
01:00:17,739 --> 01:00:19,157
[music fades]

1064
01:00:19,240 --> 01:00:20,992
I need the promise ring back.

1065
01:00:21,075 --> 01:00:23,077
[dramatic sting]

1066
01:00:29,334 --> 01:00:31,336
[somber music playing]

1067
01:00:53,816 --> 01:00:55,443
It's been a tough journey.

1068
01:00:57,570 --> 01:01:00,615
My first instinct
is always the correct instinct.

1069
01:01:00,698 --> 01:01:04,285
And I should stick
with my first gut instinct on someone.

1070
01:01:04,869 --> 01:01:05,703
Yeah.

1071
01:01:05,787 --> 01:01:09,457
And maybe I was just trying
to fit a square peg into a round hole.

1072
01:01:10,541 --> 01:01:13,211
And my picker was wrong once again.

1073
01:01:15,004 --> 01:01:15,838
Yeah.

1074
01:01:16,339 --> 01:01:17,215
But…

1075
01:01:20,218 --> 01:01:23,846
During my alone time,
I've also realized that

1076
01:01:25,014 --> 01:01:27,850
maybe I don't have to be the perfect man.

1077
01:01:31,145 --> 01:01:36,192
Maybe I just needed to be the guy
that was there for you

1078
01:01:36,693 --> 01:01:40,113
throughout all the good times,
highs and lows.

1079
01:01:40,196 --> 01:01:43,658
Somebody that you could talk to
and count on.

1080
01:01:43,741 --> 01:01:47,453
Somebody that'd always be there for you
just like your mom was before she left.

1081
01:01:47,537 --> 01:01:49,414
[dramatic music playing]

1082
01:01:49,497 --> 01:01:52,583
And I think, spending time with you,

1083
01:01:53,668 --> 01:01:55,253
enjoying you,

1084
01:01:56,295 --> 01:01:58,506
not realizing there was an age gap,

1085
01:01:59,924 --> 01:02:01,259
has made me

1086
01:02:02,301 --> 01:02:04,429
want to commit.

1087
01:02:04,512 --> 01:02:06,514
♪ So let it go… ♪

1088
01:02:06,597 --> 01:02:08,141
What is happening?

1089
01:02:08,224 --> 01:02:09,892
[chuckling]

1090
01:02:09,976 --> 01:02:10,810
What?

1091
01:02:11,310 --> 01:02:13,146
I don't want this journey to end.

1092
01:02:13,229 --> 01:02:16,023
[chuckling] Oh my God.
What is happening here?

1093
01:02:16,107 --> 01:02:18,151
And you know,

1094
01:02:19,360 --> 01:02:22,822
it's been a crazy
roller coaster of a ride.

1095
01:02:24,615 --> 01:02:27,285
But I'm not getting off anytime soon.

1096
01:02:28,286 --> 01:02:29,746
I love the shit out of you.

1097
01:02:29,829 --> 01:02:30,747
[Vanessa chuckling]

1098
01:02:30,830 --> 01:02:34,584
And, uh, you know, I wanna make a promise
and a commitment.

1099
01:02:34,667 --> 01:02:36,669
[uplifting music playing]

1100
01:02:37,420 --> 01:02:39,422
You're someone who deserves everything.

1101
01:02:40,423 --> 01:02:42,091
What is happening? [chuckling]

1102
01:02:42,175 --> 01:02:45,094
And someone who deserves the Kobe ring.

1103
01:02:45,178 --> 01:02:47,180
Stop it. No.

1104
01:02:49,098 --> 01:02:50,933
Is this really happening?

1105
01:02:51,559 --> 01:02:54,103
-Vanessa…
-Stop it! [chuckling]

1106
01:02:54,687 --> 01:02:56,939
I'm not ready to get off anytime soon.

1107
01:02:57,023 --> 01:02:59,150
Oh my God. What is happening?

1108
01:02:59,233 --> 01:03:00,318
[Logan] So…

1109
01:03:01,569 --> 01:03:04,322
You wanna continue this journey
and do life together?

1110
01:03:04,405 --> 01:03:08,451
♪ The only thing I'm waiting for is you ♪

1111
01:03:10,870 --> 01:03:11,996
Yes. I do.

1112
01:03:15,541 --> 01:03:17,335
Oh my God. I'm shaking.

1113
01:03:19,253 --> 01:03:20,171
[Logan] So…

1114
01:03:20,254 --> 01:03:21,756
-Oh my God.
-There is that.

1115
01:03:22,256 --> 01:03:25,009
[Vanessa] Oh my God. It's so pretty.

1116
01:03:25,092 --> 01:03:28,137
-So let's do it.
-Oh my gosh. I fucking love you.

1117
01:03:31,390 --> 01:03:34,101
Oh my God. [chuckles]

1118
01:03:34,185 --> 01:03:36,145
-That's insane.
-Oh my goodness.

1119
01:03:36,229 --> 01:03:38,856
-You got red lipstick on you.
-Yeah, I know.

1120
01:03:39,774 --> 01:03:41,859
-Oh my God. I'm shaking.
-[chuckles]

1121
01:03:41,943 --> 01:03:43,986
You tricked me so bad.

1122
01:03:44,070 --> 01:03:45,446
[both chuckling]

1123
01:03:45,530 --> 01:03:48,032
When you started attacking me,
I was like, "Oh shit."

1124
01:03:48,115 --> 01:03:49,200
[Vanessa laughing]

1125
01:03:49,283 --> 01:03:51,244
[Vanessa] Oh my God.

1126
01:03:51,744 --> 01:03:52,954
Oh my God.

1127
01:03:53,037 --> 01:03:55,832
♪ 'Cause we are better ♪

1128
01:03:57,166 --> 01:03:58,042
♪ We're better… ♪

1129
01:03:58,125 --> 01:03:59,961
[Logan] Age doesn't matter for us.

1130
01:04:00,044 --> 01:04:02,547
[chuckling] As crazy as it is to

1131
01:04:04,090 --> 01:04:08,427
get engaged to somebody
that's 20 years older than me, it's…

1132
01:04:08,511 --> 01:04:09,804
It's Vanessa.

1133
01:04:09,887 --> 01:04:13,558
She's… the one that has changed me,

1134
01:04:13,641 --> 01:04:17,061
and she's the one that's made me feel ways
that I haven't felt before.

1135
01:04:17,144 --> 01:04:21,232
So, you know, at the end of the day
it's what I wanted.

1136
01:04:21,816 --> 01:04:25,361
[Vanessa] I ran every scenario of what
could happen when I was coming here,

1137
01:04:25,444 --> 01:04:29,657
but the one scenario I didn't think of
was finding the love of my life.

1138
01:04:30,366 --> 01:04:33,828
I came into this experience
with a complete open mind,

1139
01:04:33,911 --> 01:04:37,665
and I'm really super happy
with how it ended.

1140
01:04:38,332 --> 01:04:40,126
[kissing]

1141
01:04:40,209 --> 01:04:43,087
[music fades]

1142
01:04:43,170 --> 01:04:45,047
[upbeat music playing]

1143
01:04:45,131 --> 01:04:48,467
I did not think
I was gonna come into this experience

1144
01:04:48,551 --> 01:04:50,761
and completely change my life.

1145
01:04:50,845 --> 01:04:51,804
What was your name?

1146
01:04:51,888 --> 01:04:53,222
-Derrick.
-Derrick. I'm Pfeifer.

1147
01:04:53,306 --> 01:04:54,640
I love your eyes.

1148
01:04:54,724 --> 01:04:55,850
-Thank you, me too.
-Wow.

1149
01:04:55,933 --> 01:04:57,143
[chuckling]

1150
01:04:57,226 --> 01:05:00,521
It's so rare that you find somebody
that you connect with like this.

1151
01:05:00,605 --> 01:05:03,357
And I never would've expected it
to go this way,

1152
01:05:03,441 --> 01:05:05,443
but I'm so grateful that it has.

1153
01:05:05,526 --> 01:05:08,112
[both laughing]

1154
01:05:08,195 --> 01:05:09,614
You wanna get--

1155
01:05:09,697 --> 01:05:12,241
Pfeifer's definitely the person
I've been looking for.

1156
01:05:12,325 --> 01:05:14,493
She's humble. She's loving.

1157
01:05:14,577 --> 01:05:18,289
All of those are, like,
something that I've definitely wanted,

1158
01:05:18,372 --> 01:05:21,083
but I honestly didn't know
that it existed.

1159
01:05:21,167 --> 01:05:23,753
[Pfeifer] I've always thought age
was just a number.

1160
01:05:23,836 --> 01:05:28,215
And damn, yeah, this experience
really proves that it's just that.

1161
01:05:28,299 --> 01:05:31,552
♪ Only love can light it up ♪

1162
01:05:31,636 --> 01:05:34,931
I came here to try something
completely unorthodox

1163
01:05:35,014 --> 01:05:37,600
to meet people from all different ages.

1164
01:05:37,683 --> 01:05:39,602
And if anyone said, you're gonna come here

1165
01:05:39,685 --> 01:05:42,772
and you're gonna fall for a guy
that's 20 years younger than you,

1166
01:05:42,855 --> 01:05:45,149
I'd be like, you're absolutely crazy.

1167
01:05:46,484 --> 01:05:49,820
-Romeo, Romeo! Wherefore art thou, Romeo?
-[chuckles]

1168
01:05:49,904 --> 01:05:52,156
No way. Isn't this supposed
to be the opposite way?

1169
01:05:52,239 --> 01:05:53,866
You're supposed to be up here
with your hair.

1170
01:05:53,950 --> 01:05:56,994
But what Logan and I have
is something really special.

1171
01:05:57,787 --> 01:06:01,040
So I am 49.

1172
01:06:02,667 --> 01:06:03,918
I was gonna guess 29.

1173
01:06:04,001 --> 01:06:06,087
[Vanessa laughing]

1174
01:06:08,547 --> 01:06:09,632
Why Vanessa?

1175
01:06:09,715 --> 01:06:12,969
I mean, I could have connected
with anybody else.

1176
01:06:13,052 --> 01:06:16,722
There were 19 other women at the retreat,
some closer in age to me,

1177
01:06:16,806 --> 01:06:20,601
but I don't think I would love
anybody else like the way I love Vanessa.

1178
01:06:20,685 --> 01:06:21,852
She's one in a million.

1179
01:06:21,936 --> 01:06:24,021
Where do we go from here, you know?

1180
01:06:24,105 --> 01:06:26,899
-What's next is we enjoy tonight.
-Stop it. [chuckling]

1181
01:06:27,733 --> 01:06:32,321
I thought I was going to go
into the last years of my life alone.

1182
01:06:32,405 --> 01:06:36,742
And now, here I am turning 50,
and I'm in love.

1183
01:06:37,410 --> 01:06:41,330
♪ So when you're feeling heartless
And you're in the darkness ♪

1184
01:06:41,414 --> 01:06:44,375
♪ Only love can light it up ♪

1185
01:06:44,458 --> 01:06:48,004
I got more than everything
I've ever wanted out of this experience.

1186
01:06:48,087 --> 01:06:52,049
I met somebody
I never thought I would meet.

1187
01:06:52,133 --> 01:06:53,551
[woman] One, go!

1188
01:06:53,634 --> 01:06:57,304
[Libby] Andrew does see me
for the real me and not my age.

1189
01:06:57,388 --> 01:07:00,850
He sees parts of me
that a lot of people don't,

1190
01:07:00,933 --> 01:07:03,894
and he just recognizes it,
and he appreciates it.

1191
01:07:03,978 --> 01:07:05,396
I don't think I've had that before.

1192
01:07:05,479 --> 01:07:09,025
I'm enjoying what we have right now.
I'm waking up to you.

1193
01:07:09,108 --> 01:07:11,485
Yeah. This is probably the nicest thing
I'll ever say to you.

1194
01:07:11,569 --> 01:07:15,573
But the more I get to know you,
the more I like you more.

1195
01:07:15,656 --> 01:07:19,118
I really do feel like
I got my rom-com happy ending,

1196
01:07:19,201 --> 01:07:21,996
and I don't think
I could've scripted it any better.

1197
01:07:22,079 --> 01:07:24,457
♪ Only love can light it up… ♪

1198
01:07:25,291 --> 01:07:30,588
I absolutely believe age is just a number
because I never would have thought

1199
01:07:30,671 --> 01:07:36,260
that I could connect with somebody
that is 27 years old on this level.

1200
01:07:36,343 --> 01:07:38,637
♪ Light it up, light it up ♪

1201
01:07:38,721 --> 01:07:39,764
I'm gonna go for it.

1202
01:07:40,723 --> 01:07:44,101
I love Theresa.
I love how she makes me feel.

1203
01:07:44,185 --> 01:07:45,061
All right. [chuckling]

1204
01:07:45,144 --> 01:07:48,355
And for seeing me for who I am

1205
01:07:48,439 --> 01:07:50,733
and loving me and accepting me

1206
01:07:50,816 --> 01:07:53,694
for a 27-year-old
who's a little more mature.

1207
01:07:54,195 --> 01:07:57,823
It's the connection that counts,
not the candles on the cake.

1208
01:07:57,907 --> 01:08:00,076
-Should I grab your ass? [chuckles]
-[John] Yeah.

1209
01:08:00,159 --> 01:08:02,161
[both chuckling]

1210
01:08:03,662 --> 01:08:06,040
♪ Oh I, oh I ♪

1211
01:08:06,123 --> 01:08:09,251
♪ I see it in a new light, new light ♪

1212
01:08:09,335 --> 01:08:12,880
♪ Oh I, I see it in a new light ♪

1213
01:08:12,963 --> 01:08:15,216
♪ Looking at it with fresh eyes ♪

1214
01:08:15,299 --> 01:08:17,301
♪ I'm ready for the best life ♪

1215
01:08:17,384 --> 01:08:21,597
♪ Oh I, oh I, I see it in a new light ♪

1216
01:08:22,181 --> 01:08:24,892
♪ I see it in a new light ♪

1217
01:08:24,975 --> 01:08:26,602
♪ I see it in a new light ♪

1218
01:08:26,685 --> 01:08:29,605
♪ I see it in a new light ♪

1219
01:08:29,688 --> 01:08:30,940
♪ I see it ♪

1220
01:08:31,023 --> 01:08:31,982
♪ New light ♪

1221
01:08:32,066 --> 01:08:35,528
♪ Oh I, I see it in a new light ♪

1222
01:08:35,611 --> 01:08:36,779
♪ New light ♪

1223
01:08:36,862 --> 01:08:40,074
♪ Oh I, I see it in a new light ♪

1224
01:08:40,157 --> 01:08:44,662
♪ Oh I, oh I, I see it in a new light ♪

1225
01:08:44,745 --> 01:08:45,621
♪ New light ♪

1226
01:08:45,704 --> 01:08:49,500
♪ Oh I, I see it in a new light ♪

1227
01:08:49,583 --> 01:08:51,752
♪ Looking at it with fresh eyes ♪

1228
01:08:51,836 --> 01:08:53,838
♪ I'm ready for the best life ♪

1229
01:08:53,921 --> 01:08:54,922
♪ New light ♪

1230
01:08:55,005 --> 01:08:58,259
♪ Oh I, I see it in a new light ♪

1231
01:08:58,342 --> 01:08:59,635
[music fades]